alright... nelly's back at camp... which makes me a part-time widow...
hmm... so many events occured of late... beginnin with ser's birthday...
uh... i think ser and folks waited quite a bit...
err... some miscommunications i suppose...
i haven't seen the penguin for some time...
and it is pretty nice to have her around...
anyway... the food was good and the ice cream cake was terribly yummy...
xiu had to leave though... she didn't look too good that day...
the bimbo bought a pair of heels at 150 bucks only to give her toes a bad day...
bimbo... anyway... it hardly is anythin surprisin... *laughs*
i think it happened twice already...
but it is folks like her who drives our handiplast economy alright... *laughs*
uh... ser and angela were headin towards expo... leavin nel, peishan and i...
we went on a frenzy at the branded apparel sale... which is really cute of us...
and ps forgot about her work thus... *laughs*
hmm... there is this one particular incident though... i'm not too sure what night...
this biatch of a woman... a fat woman who should have known better...
than to snugly and conveniently place herself at the only passage way for peeps to pass...
i told her excuse me... and after i was quite some distance away...
i heard her yell in chinese "yao guo jiu guo la... han she me han..."
in english it is somethin to the effect of... (mimics chang)
"you want to walk just walk la... shout what shout..."
i didn't think it was cultivated to engage in a mutual verbal swordplay with her...
therefore i thought i would just let the event pass...
however... as i went past the same passageway...
miss fatso was still at the same spot... adamant on bein a road block...
we went past her again and i drawled a very long bbbbiiiiittttccccchhhhh at her...
but nelly said she wasn't yellin at me... which made me a little guilty... *laughs*
anyway... the block leave didn't turn out well for the both of us...
things don't feel the same between us anymore... for me at least...
in the day... nel is perpetually tired when we are out...
he doesn't look happy... and he doesn't respond to my antics no more...
in the past he would squeeze me very tight and say very sweet things like...
"why are you are so adorable.." but now he looks sleepy all the time...
some nights... it becomes excruciatingly lonesome and boring...
especially because my biological clock is at exact opposite with his...
and i don't feel good that the one who makes an effort to accompany me into the night is marcus and not nelvin...
hmm... but i overlooked the unhappy moments and let him sleep anyway...
anyway... the feelin that somethin isn't right kept escalatin...
finally i spoke to him about it only have him floor me with a very shockin response...
he kinda lost his temper and ranted very terribly which is really rare...
*sigh* and i think i just went dead quiet and started to cry after awhile...
hmm... and i don't really remember what happened after that...
i think i told him i was alright and we hung up after that...
this mornin he apologized for bein so beastly to me last night...
my mind is in a whirl...
apart from my internal problems with nel...
i'm beset with external problems from other guys whom nel thinks are too forward...
they are either my primary school friends or my college friends or my friend's bro...
i don't know how to ask them to fuck off or get off my back without soundin discourteous...
and i don't think it is right to because they have been nice to me...
i keep tellin him they are like shit and he is like an angel to me...
but i don't suppose its a good enough analogy...
gah... may life's sorrows just disappear...
hmm... so many events occured of late... beginnin with ser's birthday...
uh... i think ser and folks waited quite a bit...
err... some miscommunications i suppose...
i haven't seen the penguin for some time...
and it is pretty nice to have her around...
anyway... the food was good and the ice cream cake was terribly yummy...
xiu had to leave though... she didn't look too good that day...
the bimbo bought a pair of heels at 150 bucks only to give her toes a bad day...
bimbo... anyway... it hardly is anythin surprisin... *laughs*
i think it happened twice already...
but it is folks like her who drives our handiplast economy alright... *laughs*
uh... ser and angela were headin towards expo... leavin nel, peishan and i...
we went on a frenzy at the branded apparel sale... which is really cute of us...
and ps forgot about her work thus... *laughs*
hmm... there is this one particular incident though... i'm not too sure what night...
this biatch of a woman... a fat woman who should have known better...
than to snugly and conveniently place herself at the only passage way for peeps to pass...
i told her excuse me... and after i was quite some distance away...
i heard her yell in chinese "yao guo jiu guo la... han she me han..."
in english it is somethin to the effect of... (mimics chang)
"you want to walk just walk la... shout what shout..."
i didn't think it was cultivated to engage in a mutual verbal swordplay with her...
therefore i thought i would just let the event pass...
however... as i went past the same passageway...
miss fatso was still at the same spot... adamant on bein a road block...
we went past her again and i drawled a very long bbbbiiiiittttccccchhhhh at her...
but nelly said she wasn't yellin at me... which made me a little guilty... *laughs*
anyway... the block leave didn't turn out well for the both of us...
things don't feel the same between us anymore... for me at least...
in the day... nel is perpetually tired when we are out...
he doesn't look happy... and he doesn't respond to my antics no more...
in the past he would squeeze me very tight and say very sweet things like...
"why are you are so adorable.." but now he looks sleepy all the time...
some nights... it becomes excruciatingly lonesome and boring...
especially because my biological clock is at exact opposite with his...
and i don't feel good that the one who makes an effort to accompany me into the night is marcus and not nelvin...
hmm... but i overlooked the unhappy moments and let him sleep anyway...
anyway... the feelin that somethin isn't right kept escalatin...
finally i spoke to him about it only have him floor me with a very shockin response...
he kinda lost his temper and ranted very terribly which is really rare...
*sigh* and i think i just went dead quiet and started to cry after awhile...
hmm... and i don't really remember what happened after that...
i think i told him i was alright and we hung up after that...
this mornin he apologized for bein so beastly to me last night...
my mind is in a whirl...
apart from my internal problems with nel...
i'm beset with external problems from other guys whom nel thinks are too forward...
they are either my primary school friends or my college friends or my friend's bro...
i don't know how to ask them to fuck off or get off my back without soundin discourteous...
and i don't think it is right to because they have been nice to me...
i keep tellin him they are like shit and he is like an angel to me...
but i don't suppose its a good enough analogy...
gah... may life's sorrows just disappear...
