i couldn't rein the emotions last night... heh...
i told nelly... i realized that i had been takin him for granted...
only now that he is leavin me... did i realize how precious he is to me...
i am angry with myself for tellin him that maybe...
we both should take the period to reconsider our relationship...
but its a terribly late day for regrets...
heh... its terribly embarrassin really... the way i cried...
today... accompanied my nelly's family... i went to pulau tekong...
with a perpetual lump at my throat...
the island is really pretty...
we parted pretty sadly... but no one wept...
danchi and i took the ferry back to the main island...
and the both of us could only talk about benson and nelvin...
heh... i reached home at a quarter past nine...
and accordin to the officer... the administrative time is at half past nine...
heh... i stood by my phone at half past nine...
and before i knew it... i had been starin at the phone for an hour...
he called me at eleven... tellin me that the bunk mates are good...
god... how i miss him...