hmm... the 20th seem pretty far away...
how am i to endure it...
i am so sensitive to the phone...
each time it beeps i start...
nel cannot be having an easy time to...
he messaged me at five... seven... nine... and eleven...
he called me in the afternoon... to tell me he missed me terribly...
i guess it is a very tryin period for the both of us...
especially since both of us are so used to havin each other around...
this afternoon... the truth spilled...
it irks me very terribly to entertain the thought...
that my daddy had been secretly readin my messages...
especially since i do respect him alot...
its pretty disconcertin the way he flagrantly disregards my privacy...
although i hardly confessed... i didn't deny his assumptions...
he hasn't really spoken a word to me all day...
i guess he is disappointed...
my dad is pretty cool...
seriously... which 48 year old man would use hair wax...
it kinda baffles me that he is so violently opposed to me being attached...
i'll be happy to know that someone loves my daughter so...
he goes about how i must prioritize my school work...
and how a man would screw up my life...
i really wished my dad would understand the turmoil...
on one hand... i really love him... i don't wish to disobey his wishes...
but on the other...
i'll really appreciate it if he would give me some breathin space...
let me grow emotionally...
i understand where he is comin from...
but still... i think it is time to put a stop to his dominance over my life...
such a mess... oh God... please help...