hmm... this christmas must have had been the worst in many years...
on hindsight... it is worse than christmas a year ago...
apparently... quan cracked...
and decided town had exceeded its perceptual carrying capacity...
and led a party of shiang and i to toa payoh central...
where we shared a very forlorn x'mas luncheon indeed...
this mornin... tejay invited me to his place for some get together...
the lunch was sumptuous... turkey... ham... sushi... and what have you...
tejay had a friend at his place... i suppose he was called edmund...
anyway... edmund kinda floored me...
er... like 4 As for the A levels...
one distinction and merit for 2 S papers...
he was hardly an engaging conversationist...
and i was content to read oliver twist for most parts of the conversation...
i left tejay's place for my grandma's at about six...
where i slept away the better part of the night...
well... boring huh...

on a serious note...
the compass of life seemed to have lost me...
hmm... i have lost sight of whatever i desire...
on occasions i question myself... and my soliloquy goes like this...
"hey victoria... wake up...
why are u setting yourself against a battle you know would conquer you...
you are only eighteen...
there are so many possiblities that awaits you...
why are you so eager to shut the doors..."

i most assuredly am not schizophrenic...
i'm only but a sad child...